38 years living "ultra" green- still going. How to. How not to. Why. Why not.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Jack London would have loved it-
Sunday, December 5, 2010
sledding
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Ah, winter.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
pocketa pocketa queep
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Sunrise, sunset...
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Render unto Timex...
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Thursday, October 21, 2010
"Just let The Market work!"
I know, I owe you guys a guinea update. :-) Working on it. Meanwhile, I just made this comment over on Richard Black's BBC environment blog, and kind of liked the way it turned out - so, I'll repeat it here. This is part and parcel of the Sociopathic Business syndrome- the insistence that The Market will solve all problems - if only those nasty regulators will allow it to-
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A couple of years ago, I got a nice lesson in reality. My very ugly truck was stolen.
I'd bought the truck specifically as a farm-only vehicle; ugly but functional. Very ugly, rusty; but mechanically reliable, like a tractor. "Nobody in their right mind would steal it", was our firm belief, so it was left commonly in the field, in sight of the public road, where we were working. Everyone agreed- "nobody would ever steal that old piece of junk". We de-registered it; no license, since it never went off the farm.
Guess what? Some people- who were NOT in their right mind, but hopped on meth - stole it, and wrecked it. Actually causing us substantial loss; it was a tool we needed.
Now- I'm not considered a dumb person- but how did I forget that the world is teeming with people "not in their right mind"?
Humans are outstanding at simultaneously believing two different things- which they know are mutually exclusive; "incompossible", as they used to say. First world farmers, for example know that if they don't produce as much food as possible, "the world will starve"; and simultaneously know that overproduction of food is responsible for their low prices and constant dance with bankruptcy. So they support burning the food they grow, and get very huffy about it if you suggest that burning food is, um, questionable.
SR wrote:
"I think what a lot of people tend to forget is that if it weren't for market mechanisms and the *generally* efficient allocation of scarce resources thereof, we would still be floundering in something resembling a Dicken's novel."
The concept that "markets efficiently allocate resources" is another one of these beguiling fantasies. I'm delighted to see the "generally" added- perhaps a bit of reality is slipping in.
The illusion stems from an underlying and rarely stated part of the belief; which is that markets will, and do- operate "honestly".
All of history- and blatantly all of very recent history- agrees that markets NEVER operate honestly. Never. It just doesn't happen. Never has. The Code of Hammurabi contains death penalties for people who cheat in business.
Sure, there are plenty of plain honest business people who run beautifully honest operations (I'm one, in fact). And in case you hadn't noticed, they're the ones who wind up in the newspapers- for going bankrupt, after years of hard honest work. While the dishonest ones- wind up in the papers for mind-blowing bonuses; wrist-slap legal fines for their illegal operations; and the fact they resent being called dishonest.
It has always been that way. Yes, indeed, markets allocate resources fairly; and if my Aunt had wheels, she'd be a Ferrari.
Or we could always say, anyone in their right mind, will obviously conduct business honestly and fairly.
That'll work.
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What they teach, in the Business School Of Sociopathy- is that if you simply keep repeating the mantra of "The Market Will Solve All Problems" - a huge number of voters will believe it, forever. Which will then ensure that Regulations are kept to a minimum; and "business opportunities" are not abridged.
Which means- opportunities for theft, fraud, and piracy- will alway be available; thank goodness.
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That post on the BBC generated some following discussion; maybe worth looking at...
Sunday, October 10, 2010
The Denialoons...
Friday, October 8, 2010
More to be pitied, than scorned.
Friday, October 1, 2010
Harvard Business School Has No Clothes.
It's summed up in a blindingly oblivious "Op-Ed" piece, in today's New York Times. From the author's blurb:
"William D. Cohan, a former investigative reporter in Raleigh, N.C., writes on alternate Fridays about Wall Street and Main Street. He worked on Wall Street as a senior mergers and acquisitions banker for 15 years. He also worked for two years at GE Capital. He is the author of 'House of Cards: A Tale of Hubris and Wretched Excess on Wall Street' "
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(Until you sneeze, then it goes into the default rate of 30%...)
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There are multiple sites on the web that deal with definitions of sociopath, and lists of character traits. They don't all agree, but take a look; and compare the traits to those flaunted by "business" professionals.
For the last many decades, the business world has very effectively insinuated huge respect for themselves into every aspect of our culture. All good things flow from business; without it, we will all perish. There you have a truth beyond examination. To question it, even, is punishable. The metaphors quickly reach to religious dogma; heresy; and excommunication.
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Maybe you already knew this. I've always known there were slimy characters here and there; but it was a new idea, hitting me with force, that we actually accept, and teach, a group of behaviors and attitudes we also recognize as incredibly destructive and dangerous. Genuinely pathological. Sick.
Try saying "Harvard School Of Sociopathy" a few times; see how it fits.
Today; it's to the point where a respected writer can suggest, in a respected forum, that stupid people deserve to be tricked, and "we" should waste no money to save them. (Never mind that the public will then, provably, pay for their prisons, hospitals and funerals, and sociopathic children.)
What happened to the idea that business should not involve traps and tricks, in the first place?
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Manifestly, The American Way Of Business now thrives - survives- on tricks and traps. The entire model is sociopathic. And is run by trained sociopaths.
Spread the word. So far, sociopath is still a label most would like to avoid. It's a very bad thing to call someone. A very hard word. Maybe it needs to be spray-painted all over Wall Street.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
I have issues.
Which cracked me up. I love the way our language changes. "To have issues" is not that old a phrase; goes back only to the 80's, I think, and was unknown before then. Now it's become this powerful and universal explanatory. I love imagining exactly how it bounces around in the kindergarten room.
I have issues, at the moment. We've had this momentary karma crash, apparently.
While my health is currently not an issue, everything else is. Our poultry, both guineas and chickens, are disappearing, at a really alarming rate. Something is eating them (the piles of feathers attest) but we can't figure what. Have to figure it out.
Our tree crops are dropping like crazy; and we can't pick them up fast enough. And- we got clobbered by the flooding rains a couple days ago; with more on the way. We only got 4 inches out of it, not the 10 some neighbors did. But when you're picking stuff up off the ground, and the ground is mud- it's not good.
The storm was what our grandparents would all have called "the equinoctial storm". Smack on the equinox, this time. They all new/believed that you can expect a major rainstorm event every year, close to the equinox. Lots of mysticism about why; but for our location, my 30+ years of watching tends to affirm their opinion. The balance of sunlight has shifted from light to dark; the weather shifts too.
Besides pounding crops into mud, we got hit by a karmic lightning bolt. Well, the surge, anyway.
For decades, it's been my rigid practice to unplug everything during lightning storms. After frying 8 (no exaggeration) answering machines, it seemed the best practice. But. This time, the DSL connection was left on; and my computer was connected.
We heard a very loud POP from the direction of the DSL, and every circuit breaker in the house tripped. The thunder roll came a couple seconds later; this wasn't a hit on the house.
Took a while to figure out what and where. After resetting all the breakers; the DSL modem; and my computer, were stone dead. The surge evidently got into the DSL line, evaded all their protections, then via ethernet wire into my computer, then into the power lines, and "poof". Lighting does anything it wants to, is the actual physical law.
I was really pretty dismayed to discover how dependent I've become on the computer and the web. It's a chunk of my life; and when it's not available, things get out of kilter. How the hell am I supposed to plan what to do when I can't look at the radar loop? Or when that urgent email conversation is disrupted?
I used to, of course. Changing back is strangely difficult, though.
Meanwhile. More rain on way. Gotta get crops in.
Monday, September 20, 2010
I paid too much.
After which, you arrive home to reality, and while it's wonderful; that damned pot hole in the driveway still needs to be fixed...
And so it goes. As St. Vonnegut put it repeatedly. Anyway; an actual post:
Two days ago, I paid too much for an antique. On purpose.
The "antique" is a hand-cranked feed grinder; for turning whole corn etc. into chicken feed. It's small scale agriculture; but from the day when people bought such things expecting them to work without breaking, for a lifetime; to serve their own needs fully, and well.
I've needed one for a year, and have been suffering mentally from the fact that before I had any poultry I saw one, languishing in an antique mall, asking to be taken home for a very measly $35; a great 40 lb chunk of cast iron from another era. Nobody was buying, obviously; it's a heavy working machine, and doesn't transform well into a tchotchke. I'd admired the beautiful design and utility of it, and passed on; and kicked myself constantly for not buying it, all the days after.
Once I needed one, they vanished from the antique malls of course. I looked, asked, drove to see the other dealer across town, etc, for several years, with no luck. Most dealers knew what it was I was talking about, and had seen them; but were also aware that the market for them was nearly non-existent.
On my way driving home, I stopped for a break in the small town where I went to high school; a place to which I retain very few ties. Walked past our old house, noticed that the tuck pointing I'd done on the front stairs was holding up fine, but that whatever I hadn't repaired then was now in desperate need. And finding a couple of antique stores, looked in mostly out of community curiosity, not real hope. They always ask; "Looking for anything special?" And I always answer, as a way to open communication, and ease the situation dynamics. "Yeah, I'm looking for a... " and the hands start flailing about to express dimensions and actions.
"Nope. But the other store back up town might- they've got a basement." Ok. Trudge. "Oh, I really don't know. I have two dealers who might; let's see - " and hailing one who happened to be in, relayed my request. "Well. Maybe."
Let's look. And there, behold, is my feed grinder. Cleaned up to an insane degree, and painted fire engine red in hopes of achieving tchotchke-hood, but there it is; massive cast iron, with enough wear on the iron teeth to prove a long and useful career already achieved; with another hundred years left in it.
There's the tag. Flip it over. $145.00.
Now- the lady, who inadvertently had blurted "you know, we thought that's what it was!" and thus revealed her position of inferior knowledge, was looking at me very hopefully, as I looked up from the tag. There wasn't any doubt in my mind that if I'd played the game, she'd have cheerfully taken $100; or maybe a lot less- ("man, the last one I saw was a lot better, and they were only asking $35!") but instead, I gave her a full-smile, put out my hand, and said "Done!"
And I was actually aware of what I was doing. I was willing to pay the exorbitant price for two reasons. One; pure celebratory joy that I'd succeeded in this long search, and I can now grind my own stuff to feed the guineas and chickens; and Two -
Two is more complicated. This was a piece of pretty important machinery to me; and similar bits of old technology exist in many corners of antique stores, attics, basements and barns. Most of these old tools wind up thrown away. "Nobody wants that junk anymore; it's just scrap."
A bunch of the tools I used to build this house came out of antique stores; and the need for these simpler machines is increasing, not decreasing.
I paid the price cheerfully - to encourage, forcefully, this lady and her antique dealer friends to preserve the old tools when they find them; and make them available to those of us who recognize and want them. I didn't tell her that.
I doubt that extra $45 will ever find its way back to me, in karmic payoff. But. It was my contribution, for the day, to the direction of human enterprise. Hopefully, it will help a few others find what they need, down the road.
A little shove on the iceberg.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Good news.
I (me) finally found the cause of my illness; which has kept me >50% bedridden for many months.
Good ol' overmedication.
I really don't blame the docs (exactly). But shortly after my bellyache posts here, and right after one of my docs prescribed a new drug to add to my list; I decided I really needed to go back to square one, and find out what my unmedicated symptoms might be.
So I took what the docs call a "drug holiday", which they chuckle about when they mention it. A holiday from drugs, not on them.
I quit. Not cold turkey, but tapering off; and I told the docs after I'd done it.
After 2 months of letting them all clear out of my systems- holy fecal material - I'm well.
Or at least back to my old complaints, not the new ones that were so debilitating.
So those thousands of you who have been losing sleep worrying about me- all the worry vibes seem to have worked, and I'm back to my quasi-normal self.
:-)
The rebound effect, though is fierce. There's a shipload of work that's been waiting for me, so I'm like, um, really busy. On the road, at the moment, visiting, talking, looking.
But smiling.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Sunday, August 22, 2010
STILL not dead yet.
hi folks. We're just plodding through lots of energy sucking stuff here. I'm hoping to have a tad more energy available for the blog now. Sure want to.
Meanwhile. This just hit me and cracked me up today; and I wanted to share it with you.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
The handbasket is getting cramped.
As many of you know, I frequently comment over on The Automatic Earth. (There are a lot of days when I can manage to read and react; but don't really have the energy needed for a coherent and worthwhile post of my own.)
One of the readers there took some of Stoneleigh's words, and some of the pictures Ilargi uses to introduce each post there; and edited it all into this video.
For some reason, the embed process wasn't working for me today. Watch it; it's not long, nice music. And pretty pessimistic. But if you're not feeling pessimistic these days, I'd have to think you're not paying attention. The rate at which really bad news hits us seems to have doubled from only 6 months ago. One million people in the US have lost all unemployment benefits recently; and many more will be in the same handbasket to hell shortly. They will have nothing to pay any of their bills with. Which means some of the people they've managed to keep paying will now be unable to pay their bills. Even Joe Biden admitted last week that many of the jobs lost so far will never come back.
One good thing. Listen to the tone of Stoneleigh's voice. She knows how bad things look, in an astonishingly lucid way. But you will not hear despair in her voice.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Whole Planet Picnic! Again!
I'm still fighting the tummy thing; so am seriously short on time; most I can do today is link here to past posts. There are actually a number of them; if you have the interest, you can do a search the blog thingy for those.
We're doing it!
Wolfmamma had asked for some specific games we do; mostly after dusk the kids are either catching fireflies, then letting them go; or playing some jungle version of hide and seek. Before that, there's a fox and goose course mowed in tall grass, and a steep very grassy hill for grass sledding. One of the best bets; if you've got some elders in the group- ask them to teach the kids something. That's usually pretty cool.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
How to fix the Gulf oil leak. Seriously.
But. It occurred to me today that I have US, Chinese, and Canadian patents on a metallurgy process. Which is based on the work of brilliant engineers. Who totally failed to see; or even look; outside their narrow focus.
They can do that. And watching them today, carefully grinding down the cut off pipe so it will be nice and neat- I'm thinking WTF!!!!!!??????
The focus on precision is a disaster; it's why they keep failing; and it's utterly unnecessary. If you just think in a different direction.
Now. For any serious engineer readers. This is not a technical spec sheet. It's a broad concept. Don't let me catch you knee-jerking "that won't work because...". When you spot a problem, ask instead, "ok, how do we get around that??" Because I assure you- I've thought of it- and there are ways around. Enumerating them would make this incomprehensible.
For technical critics: keep in mind: US Patent Office certified thinking here; on a very technical process where very bright people failed to understand their own work.
In a nutshell:
DO NOT try to fit a pipe onto that sawed off riser.
Instead- think of the riser as the nozzle on a tank full of helium. And put the equivalent of a balloon onto it.
Loosely.
The crude is coming out at something like 9,000 psi, yes? And what is the pressure of the oil about 30' away from the pipe; after exit? Why- zero, relatively speaking, and velocity is reduced to the speed of oil rising due to differing density.
Seriously. Go get a big hot-air balloon, today; the big ones have a capacity of over 200,000 cubic feet; around 1.28 million US gallons; about 30,000 barrels.
The point to the balloon is to create a large reservoir, with lots of buffering capacity. You hook your FLEXIBLE and OVERSIZED pipes up to it, and then hook up to suction pipe, and take it to the surface.
You could easily have a capture envelope big enough to allow gases and liquids to separate; so you could suck gas out of the top of the envelope, say, and liquids out of the middle regions.
Ok. Really? A hot air balloon is not big enough; or strong enough; but it gives you the idea. And you could practice with one today.
You make the envelope out of industrial neoprene; with a mouth about 60 feet wide. I'd make mine about 300 feet tall, and 200 feet wide, to start. Bigger is better, but manipulating it and mooring it are better learned smaller. You move the mouth over the plume at a distance of 20 feet or so, and then move it down; and moor it to the floor in 5 places. The envelope will inflate; just like your helium balloon. You, of course, have 8 different flexible suction hose ports already attached to the envelope in different places.
Hook up, and suck.
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Could this be done so it doesn't work? Hell yes.
Could it be done so it DOES work? HELL YES.
You'll probably have to try a couple times to figure it out.
Beats the bloody hell out of what's going on now.
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Folks; if you think this has merit; pass it on. Who knows; eventually the right person might see it.
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Oh, yeah. An expected reaction to this is "Why, that's obvious. I'm sure they've already thought about THAT. Must not work for some reason."
You may want to check on that. Totally obvious ideas have gone unthought of for millennia; in fact, that's the usual path of progress.
tummy upchu, uh, date.
It means a lot when people yell at you. :-)
As it turned out, I didn't even need Crunchy's dulcet coo of "dumbass!" to get me motivated.
All I needed was the emergency room.
Ha, I hear you crow, "told you so!"
Yes, you did. :-) and yes, you were right.
I'll keep this as short as I can; other fish to fry; but, Sat evening, the nausea got uncontrollable and the vomiting rate was up. So it's time for urgent care. Saturday night is our standard choice for emergency room visits.
I lucked out and got my old family doctor who knows me intimately, and is sharp as they come. Just to prove everything, not that I had to, I threw up for him.
He's been friend as well as doctor for decades; he checked everything; liver function, etc etc, blood, urine, barium swallow/injected vascular visualizer CAT scan.
And. Nothing. very slight elevated white count, tiny bit of protein in urine- and nothing. Definitely no cancer, etc.
SEE!? Told ya.
This is my life story. "yup, you're sick- but we can't find it."
Then, for more fun (I LOVE artificially berry flavored barium) - one day later; Smidgen started throwing up, at 7PM. Spice started at 9 PM. Smidgen stopped around 4 AM, Spice about 6.
Pretty clearly, my urgent visit was not an escalation of the chronic problem; but a case of "stomach flu" (aka food poisoning) grafted on top of it.
Got the CAT done for the chronic thing, anyway.
We're all still recovering from the food poisoning; gripy stomachs; and it looks like square 1 for the chronic.
Who knows, maybe the food poisoning will knock out the chronic, right?
Saturday, May 29, 2010
explanation and new ACTION!-
Some days ago I sent this comment in to Mark Bitten's "Minimalist" column on the NYT. I really didn't think he'd post it- but he did. (The column it was in response to is worth reading if you're a burger fan- he's a heck of a writer.)
My tummy has been giving me a bad time since September. Whatever it is acts like "stomach flu", but at this point, I'm pretty sure it isn't. At kind of random intervals, I'll throw up thoroughly; for no apparent reason; which is followed by about 2 days of 23 hours of sleep, a couple wobbly days, then a week or so of slight nausea, low energy, and an IQ of 78.
That's the real reason I'm so quiet here. I keep thinking it has to go away, but it doesn't. Next step is the doctor, I guess, which I'm dreading; having spent months in doctors' offices and labs being tested for weird symptoms; almost never with any resolution.
And the "it's Crunchy's fault" part- it's incredibly embarrassing for me to mumble about tummy aches, when she is dealing; literally heroically, with real illness. I feel like an ass even mentioning my piddly stuff. So, I've been quiet about it.
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Meanwhile. I spend a fair number of hours perusing the web, and I sometimes have enough functioning brain cells that I can respond well, when appropriately stimulated.
Here is the ACTION part.
Anybody out there pissed at BP? Like to do something about it besides t-shirts?
I made this comment over on TAE yesterday: (Incidentally, the opening essay is really worth reading, though it will not cheer you up.)
A community response. The owners of BP gas stations are already loudly explaining that the boycott doesn't hurt BP - but it really hurts the small-guy owner.
This is likely very true. So-
Get all the potential boycotters together- sign them up- then send a good committee of 3 very friendly and diplomatic community people to meet with each and every BP station owner.
I guarantee they ain't happy with BP neither.
Tell them- "If you dump your BP franchise- we'll bring the local TV crews, and help you tear down your BP signs. And everybody on this list will promise on TV to buy their gas from YOU, from now on- and ask their neighbors, friends, and family to do the same.
"We want BP OUT of our community- but we really want you to stay part of it."
Now THAT would make headlines. And communities.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
woo hoo!
This is a bit about the oil spill. In all the moaning (guys, they're just getting warmed up) people are starting to argue how rare this kind of thing is- and my response is- no, it was inevitable. Not the same slant as "rare."
And the typical press response is still "ooh, maybe the worst won't happen, and these pelicans will magically escape the oncoming oil! We just don't know yet!" Yes, we do. The Gulf- lots of it- is toast. Only question is, how many years to anything like a recovery.
I do a fair amount of commenting in several places- there are lots of days when my lobotomy will let me respond to a statement in ok fashion; but won't give me the ability to put a coherent and hopefully worthwhile independent post here.
:-)
Have a nice day, if possible.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
apropos of nothing-
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Friday, April 16, 2010
surfacing-
I have a perfect illustration of how the last weeks have been. Today I sat down at the computer to attempt some real work, and turned on my Pandora page. It was set to Christmas music.
There are about 30 reasons why, which I doubt very much you want to sort through. I'll just mention the most recent one, which is very typical of the other 29, in terms of debilitating power.
We got hit with a stomach virus; Spice first, then me. Not, of course, one of the wonderful "3 day stomach flu" bugs; this one is taking around 3 weeks. Starts with very thorough vomiting, which is likely to go on for 4 days or so, followed by a week or more of "tight stomach", along with half of your normal diet now making you nauseous. And, what the hay, exhaustion, right along.
I'm in the tail end of mine; you know, where you feel like you weigh 500 lbs and just had a lobotomy? Ah, joy.
What I usually do to combat the creeping insanity when I'm in that kind of place- almost able to get out of bed and work- but not really; is read.
I have a longstanding interest in and affection for China; I've been twice, and growing up I learned that my parents had a personal connection to General Vinegar Joe Stilwell; I read his diary when I was 14 or so. That was an eye-opener. Simultaneously I learned what a real general is like, and how difficult it is to be intelligent, moral, conscientious, and still function. And that China was an excellent model for Hell on Earth from about 1880 to 1950. And not comic-book hell; the real thing.
Consequently, whenever I've tripped over a novel or diary coming out of China from somewhere in that timeframe, I've always picked them up, added them to my pile.
So during my current convalescence (as opposed to the 8 others since January 1) I picked up the nearest book I hadn't read for several years, and it was Heaven Below, by E.H. Clayton; Prentice Hall, 1944. I tried to find a link to it- but nothing useful, and one site for rare books. Some libraries should still have it.
About halfway through it, I realized what I was holding in my hand. A manual for survival in the midst of cultural and political chaos. Something a lot of folks have been wishing for. Then it also occurred to me that many of the other books I have read about China in those years also contain many insights along the same lines; The Joy Luck Club, for instance, something a bit easier to find.
Clayton was a schoolmaster in Hangchow for 30 some years, starting in 1912; and the book was written before the end of WWII. Hangchow has been called the Venice of China, which is not a terrible comparison; canals, ancient, wealthy, and sophisticated. In Chinese literature, calling it Heaven on Earth, was a common metaphor.
The book is extremely readable, and Clayton has an acute eye for human nature, and an unusually good grasp of how the world works. And a sense of humor, mordant at times.
He lived through, and documents, including the details of daily life, the early rise of Chinese Nationalism, the advent of communism, the Generalissimo, and invasion and occupation by Japan. Plenty of chaos and conflict to go around. And he can see through his own eyes and culture, and the eyes of his Chinese teacher colleagues, and his Chinese students (boys), in an unusually balanced way.
An example from his early years, when ancient China was still predominant:
Several hundred years ago, a philanthropic Chinese gentleman had left his fortune to provide, in perpetuity, a free ferry across the river, which at Hangchow is a mile and a half wide. For three hundred years, sails and oars were the motive power, or long poling bamboos stuck in the mud and pressed against the naked bellies of sweating, chanty-singing coolies who leaned against them until they seemed almost on all fours as they forced the heavy junks through the water. The ferryboat was never started till every last inch of vacant space had been occupied by countrymen with loaded carrying-poles bringing produce to the city market - bamboo shoots, yams, peas, beans, chestnuts, water chestnuts, water nuts, the edible bulrush, and chickens - or returning carrying the precious two-bucket uncovered load of night-soil, which is the chief fertilizer on all Chinese farms.
I can see, and smell that, quite vividly - what a huge amount of information he has packed in. One of the most significant bits, to me, is the fact that traditional Chinese culture was so stable that a bequest like that could still be working after 300 years- longer than the USA has existed.
He lived there to see the complete collapse of traditional China, both culturally and politically, lived through constant sequential occupations by warlords, then the Japanese- a different phenomenon altogether. And, he saw the people survive (some of them), and develop a fierce determination among them to make China a modern state. They developed a sense of community.
One of the scariest things facing us is that we're looking at an unknown future; we can no longer predict or see what will happen next year, and after. One of the very ominous and real possibilities is the end of any practical rule of law- can we survive that? How?
Grab a book on China, 1910 to 1960, and you'll start to see what is possible. In 1938 or so, China's population stood at a mere 400,000,000 - close to the current population of the US of 300M plus.
A huge amount of it is grim beyond the comprehension of white-picket fence small town life here.
I think it can help to know that others have come through such hell, and out the other side to once again live lives they consider worthwhile.
I think it is also a good idea to learn what hell can bring, and prepare for it as much as you can. A good smack-upside the head with the 2x4 of Chinese history might help wake us up.
Much of what Clayton has to tell is heart-wrenching; reading the book is no picnic if you have an ounce of compassion. After the Japanese occupation:
A rice kitchen was maintained for adults who could show evidence of complete destitution. Eight hundred people were given tickets admitting them to a daily noon meal that was almost sufficient to keep them alive. These people were not all originally poor. One man had been the proprietor of a shop with a half million dollars worth of business a year. Several school teachers were in the group. Twenty years ago the military governor of Chekiang province had given the school a gymnasium, and now his second wife was eating in our rice kitchen, which used the gymnasium as a dining room.
One day I gave a ticket to a man whom I met on the street. It was a ticket for a month's dinners; but he misunderstood and thought it entitled him to just one meal. When he came in he was placed at a table with seven other men. He ate much more than a man in his condition should eat, then waited until the others had left and cleaned off with his tongue the entire surface of the table. So far as he knew, it might be the last meal he would ever have.
In spite of our work among children, we had many requests for rice-kitchen tickets for young people, and during the last few months we decided that, since the numbers could not be increased, we should try to save the young rather than the old. This decision forced upon me a responsibility that was very difficult to bear. Day after day it was necessary for me to say, time and again, to sweet-faced old grandmothers, or to kindly-faced old gentlemen, "No, we cannot help you." This meant, "Go and starve," and that is what they did.
A horrifingly difficult thing to do. Slightly easier for him perhaps because his boundaries and necessities were so clearly delineated. Just so much rice. 5,000 refugees inside his school walls, a school designed for 200 boys- and millions- literally- outside.
Could you do it? I have to think that coping with whatever comes may be a little easier if we think about it ahead of time. It may be, literally, a matter of life or death.